Saturday, September 22, 2007
anger? hate?
I dun noe wad i should be feeling now. It's been so unfair to me. my brother juz totally piss me off. from as far back as i can remember, my brother has always been my maternal grandmother's fav. juz wad hav i done to feel all tt i'm feeling now? every game console tt is in my house are earned by me. First and foremost, the playstation. I did well in my PSLE and my mother wanted to reward me for it. So i chose a playstation. But guess wad, my brother played it more than me. Then, for an extra reward, she bought me a gameboy colour when we were in aus for vacation. guess wad happen next? after a while when we are back in s'pore, my brother got a gameboy for his own use. Then during my sec 3 tt year, i got 3rd in class n was rewarded with my very own mp3, but a year later, my brother got an ipod. Then for my 'O' level results, i got a new phone n guess wad again. My brother, got a nokia N73 music edition juz bcoz his old phone is beyond repair. and now, he got a laptop juz bcoz the desktop cannot be switched on. I mean i worked so hard to get my laptop and my brother juz get it coz the desktop cannot be used. And he have the guts to say tt i'm the who spoil the desktop when he was the 1 using it all along. He may think tt i dun noe tt he visited porno websites. Even install mcafee didn't help much to protect the desktop.
I hav e worked so hard to get wadever i hav todae, but my brother dun even nid to do a single thing. I cannot blame my mother for getting my brother a laptop coz she simply wans him to stay at home n use the com rather than let him go out. And now i can b et with you tt when my brother reaches home n saw the laptop, he will say tt the laptop is not gd(Since when is 2nd-hand laptop gd? But it's gd enough for some1 like him. 256 RAM 1.8Ghz n a 20gb HDD) , n my mother juz wasted her money. I juz dun like my brother's attitude. My mother is already not well n he stills wans to anger her n make her worry. Recently when my mother wans to take him to the doctors for his cough, he said he dun wan n tt he will not die. i dun noe wad i should do with him. my mother nids to go back to nuh to check her numbness n her chest pain, which could mean stroke n heart problem respectively. The other day, my brother recount his cycling trip he went to last night. He mentioned something abt his friend getting nagged by her mother when she get home. Then my mother said tt nagged u all also dun listen n tt parents are concerned when they are outside so late at night. He said tt he did not ask her to worry abt him n tt if a child think tt they can take care of themselves, juz let them be. he then said something abt his friends' parents dun care wad they do outside. problems problems problems. y do i have to care abt all tt. y are the problems there in the first place?
When i was on my way back sitting on the back of the lorry asking this question to myself, the only answer to my question is "my brother". My brother is the start of all this problems
Posted by Dennis at 8:33 PM