Sunday, May 06, 2007
Confused
Haiz. never thought that i would have to face tons of problems now. First and foremost, im already up to my neck with assignments, which i have to say i can barely managed to do it. But that aside, to me i have more pressing matter(s) to attend to.
I dun noe when it started, but my younger brother is definitely smoking. And now, i am caught i n the middle. Wad should i do? Play the good guy in the family and tell my parents about it or juz let my brother be? Firstly, if i tell my parents about it, i can be sure that they will blow their top and chase my brother out of the house. But then again, if i let my brother be, he would juz sink deeper and deeper into smoking and God knows wad else he's doing outside. Well, juz have to say that i am not a good son in my family in this case and i kept it from my parents. Oh well, secrets cannot be kept secret for long. My mother searched my brother's bag the other day and i think she found out that he smokes. Dun noe much about it as i didn't care about wad she found and i didn't bother to ask her. I really hate to see my family arguing with each other. Especially my brother and my mother. They have shouted a lot of times and the last time my mother scolded my brother, my brother almost hit her. I noe tt i do not have to be the good boy or the perfect 1 in the family, i can be juz as bad as my brother, bu ti dun think my mother can take it if i were to be as bad as my brother.
When i'm alone, i always think about this, whether i have made the right decision in keeping my mouth shut. It like a boulder in my heart, weighting me down. Sometimes it gets in the way of my assignments which are due soon. This is not the only thing that been bothering me.
another problem that has been bothering me has been my father's leg. He injured it while working, but it's much better now. But i always have the fear of him getting more injuries while working. While most parents work from Mondays to Fridays, my father work almost 24/7 and i rarely get to see him at home. Sometimes, he dun even come home and he works overnight. since his leg is getting better, i can say that some of my worries have been removed.
next is my cousin. dun noe wad happened to her but from wad i heard, she had a "snake" growing in her body( dun ming the direct translation). My parents took her to see my uncle's friends who know how to remove it from the body.
Recently, last sunday when i went for steamboat at marina south, i heard that my aunt has depression. when i heard it i dun noe wad to say or do. not tt im sure tt she has depression as my uncle told my grandparents tt he think that she has depression.
And juz a few days ago, heard from my grandmother that my uncle ha ve something in his leg and he had to go for an operation to remove it. Now i'm really questioning myself. Is it juz me or is almost everyone in my family has something happening to them?
I really dun noe wad to do now. Question are always in my mind. Did my parents find out tt my brother smokes? If they did, wad is going to happen? All i can say now is that my life at home is a misery.
Posted by Dennis at 6:30 PM